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Arti Sebuah Bianglala

Posted by aqessa on June 4, 2009

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Aku suka naik bianglala. Pernah merasakan di atas? Di puncaknya? Pernah? Iya aku pernah. Rasanya aku bisa lihat dunia. Iya dunia. Penuh dengan lampu-lampu warna-warni, langit biru dan gumpalan-gumpalan awan. Aku punya rasa takut, takut jatuh terhempas. Ke bawah sana. Ke tanah. Banyak orang yang tidak takut. Mereka sangat menikmati berada disana. Tepat di bawah awan, jauh di atas tanah. Betapa asyiknya ya mereka yang tidak takut ketinggian. Aku iri, ya jelas siapa yang tidak iri kan.

Eh dugaanku benar! Perlahan-lahan aku mulai turun, mungkin menurut petugasnya sudah giliran kali ya. Tak apa lah. Kalau sudah turun rasanya susah sekali ya untuk naik kembali. Eh teman-temanku masih di atas lho. Ah… iri sekali, mereka masih bisa melihat kerlap-kerlip lampu kota yang indah dengan jelas, masih bisa berlindung di bawah awan ketika matahari terik dan masih bisa menari-nari ketika langit biru, sebiru-birunya. Aku? Yaa… hanya menatap mereka dari bawah. Kadang tersenyum kecut.

Hey, tapi lihat! Wahana ini untuk dinikmati bukan? Ya sudah, nikmati saja. Berharap mesinnya tidak berhenti sih, semoga tidak. Ah tidak akan lah, tidak akan berhenti kok, aku yakin. Seyakin-yakinnya. Berani taruhan? Kabel-kabelnya tersusun rapi di dalam, solderannya dijamin rapi. Kondensator, transistor dan resistornya tidak diragukan lagi kualitasnya. Aku baru tau mesin itu ketika berada di posisi 30 derajat.

Ternyata banyak juga teman-temanku yang ada di bawah sini. Ada yang tidak sabar ingin ke atas lagi, ada yang sudah mulai kipas-kipas dengan kertas bekas kalender tahun lalu karena hawanya yang sangat panas, ada juga yang santai saja di bawah bahkan tertidur pulas sambil tersenyum. Aku sudah bilang, wahana ini untuk dinikmati. Jadi ya lebih baik nikmati saja pemandangan di bawah sini. Sambil menunggu waktunya untuk ke atas lagi. Ternyata di bawah sini tidak buruk kok! Lihat deh aku bisa lihat bunga-bunga ini merekah, cantik sekali. Aku bisa lihat rumput-rumput hijau dengan jelas. Tidak seperti di atas hanya terlihat seperti karpet. Aku juga bisa lihat danau dan ikan-ikannya. Coba diatas, mana bisa aku lihat ikan-ikan mas koki seperti ini. Aku juga bisa lihat pasir-pasir pantai yang berkilauan dengan cangkang-cangkang cantik! Wah aku kira disini jelek, ternyata lebih indah. Tidak hanya ada lampu-lampu kota, langit biru dan gumpalan awan. Banyak sekali yang bisa aku lihat dengan jelas. Dan cantik sekali, cantiiiiiik sekali. Kasihan juga ya mereka yang terus di atas. Tidak bisa melihat betapa kayanya dunia ini dan untuk apa wahana ini diciptakan.

Tapi tentu saja aku masih ingin ke atas. Aku kan juga merindukan lampu-lampu kota yang gemerlap, awan yang seperti gulali dan langit yang biruuu sekali. Tapi aku juga suka pemandangan yang lebih spesifik di bawah. Aku bisa mensyukuri apa yang Tuhan ciptakan. Ternyata Dia hebat sekali. Aku ingin berputar, berputar, berputar. Aku tak ingin selalu di atas, aku takut ketinggian. Aku tak ingin selalu di bawah, aku rindu pemandangan di atas. Yah, setidaknya aku mengerti untuk apa bianglala dan mesin tersebut diciptakan. Kamu belum mengerti? Karena kamu belum pernah berada di posisi 30 derajat. Tapi aku yakin, kamu pasti akan berada disana, tapi entah kapan.

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Goodbye, Hello

Posted by aqessa on May 29, 2009

4517_1166658165071_1186412585_30484615_8072330_nn1315661876_30441170_4060636It’s time to say goodbye. The hardest part of your life is saying goodbye. We’re such a butterfly. Yesterday, we were a maggot. Today, we are a pupa. Then tomorrow we’re gonna be a butterfly, flying high in the beautiful summer sky. And we will try to reach the clouds and the blue sky. So, it’s a goodbye. After the leafes that we shared together, after the laugh and perfect smile that we showed. But it is not the finish line. It is the start of something new. I wish we can meet again.4517_1166660245123_1186412585_30484624_1714196_n

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Thank You

Posted by aqessa on May 29, 2009

It’s Fariz RM song, “Your Smile”. He gave it to me this afternoon. I know, the lyrics a bit cheesy….. but I love it :)

i don’t know why
God gives me a chance to know you
and all i know suddenly you came into my life
but first i guess that we only care for each other
and i realize the growing seeds of love
you showed me through your smile
that always keeps me growing strong
your smile that makes me love you for so long
your smile makes me believe on happiness is not too far beyond to reach
your smile’s the only thing that i’ll remember ’til the end of time

when i’m with you like sadness no longer exist
though i know having you the lonely lasts in my mind
to be honestly the story goes forever
cause as long as you will be as you are
as how a woman should be
through your smile will always lead my way
your smile inspired melodies in every notes i play
your smile and memories above you makes me realize
my place’s in your heart
cause for me your smile means everything from you
to keep me alive

oohhh, your smile
all that leads my way
in every notes i play

your smile that makes me love you for so long
your smile that always keeps me going strong
your smile makes me believe on happiness is not too far beyond to reach
cause for me your smile means everything from you
your smile’s the only thing that i’ll remember
cause for me your smile means everything from you
to keep me alive

your smile


thankyou, for making me as your biggest supporter
thankyou, for making me as a ‘cherry on your black forest’
thankyou. thankyou. thankyou.
I wish, I will always be :)

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Me and My Big Girl

Posted by aqessa on May 22, 2009

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Sebelumnya, pengumuman. Gue pengen mengaktifkan kembali blog ini. Tapi sebagai blog sampingan aja, yaitu buat mencurahkan isi pemikiran gue. Lebih ke thoughts atau review gitu sih daripada daily updates. Karena daily updates gue akan gue tulis di blogspot dan livejournal, tapi yang livejournal kayak lebih buat nyampah gitu haha :D . So I called this blog: Serious Blog (ngikngik, why sooo serious? –a la Joker gitu haha).

Pernahkah kamu merasa minder karena badan gendut, dan nggak ada cowok yang mau sama kamu? Pernah merasa minder karena kamu tidak selangsing mantannya cowok kamu? Kalau kamu merasa tidak nyaman hal tersebut, kamu salah besar!

Baru saja saya melihat blog temen gue (mantannya temen gue sih sebenernya), disana dia nulis tentang ceweknya. Memang sih, ceweknya itu gendut chubby gitu. Dan nggak terlalu cantik juga sih. Dan kalau kamu misalnya berada di posisi temen gue dan gosipin (temen gue sih ga begini kayaknya, tapi gue ngasih contoh aja ya ke elo) “Ah ceweknya yang baru begini, masih mendingan juga gue.” elo akan sangat tertampol dengan statement nih cowok di blog! Karena dia menulis (gue agak lupa, gue tulis poin-poinnya aja deh ya), “Cewek gue yang ini beda banget sama cewek-cewek gue yang lain. Kenapa? Soalnya dia baiiiik banget sama gw. Dia lucu gendut-gendut gitu.  Dan baiknya apa ya, banyak banget deh ga bisa gue sebutin. Emang sih dia agak keras kepala dan egois, tapi gue terima lah. Dia juga nerima kekurangan gue. Dia anaknya gampang terpengaruh, makanya gue takut dia dipegang sama orang yang salah.” See, ternyata masih baaaaanyak cowok-cowok di luar sana yang bisa menghargai lo, bisa menerima kekurangan lo, bisa menyayangi lo pure, dan tentunya bisa melihat inner elo! Jadi buat apa lo merasa minder gendut atau ga cantik? Semua orang punya selera, sayang..

Contohnya lagi, lo liat gue. I’m overskinny! Gue sampe kelas 2 SMA belom pernah pacaran sama sekali. Pertama, karena gue memang sangat pemilih. Kedua, banyak cowok yang nggak mau sama cewek yang terlalu kurus dan kecil kayak gue gini. And finally, I’ve found him. Dan tau kenapa Raka suka sama gue? Karena katanya gue kecil gitu, lucu hahahaha. Dia pernah bilang (dan ini salah satu quotes fav gue dari dia), “Emang fisik kamu nggak bagus tapi innernya dapet. Dan cuma orang yang sayang sama kamu yang bisa liat itu.” Kalo lo mungkin berfikir, “Ah itu sih gombalannya orang lagi jatuh cinta.” Menurut gue nggak. Karena ketika dia ngomong gitu, gue sedang berbicara serius soal berat badan. I often share eveything, every thoughts with him. And we debate all the time. Jadi posisinya bukan yang ngomong, “Aku kan kurus banget, kamu kok mau sih sama aku, blablablabla ngek ngok.

Ada lagi tadi membaca status updates kakak kelas gue, menulis begini, “no beauty no ngkrong. biar cupu yang penting laku . daripada cakep tapi bisanya ngarep. awas aja ampe nilep laki orang lo.” HAHAHAHA lucu sih, gue juga ketawa, tapi lumayan dalem nih. Langsung gue beri likes, hihi ;p.

Jadi, seperti apapun kamu, syukuri yang Tuhan kasih. Masih banyak orang yang mendahulukan inner daripada fisik. Karena pada dasarnya semua orang punya letak kecantikannya sendiri :)

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MOVING AGAIN

Posted by aqessa on February 28, 2009

 

I MOVED TO aqessa.blogspot.com

 

thankyou for relink :)

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Friday day day

Posted by aqessa on February 27, 2009

Today I went to “Pameran Pendidikan” at Balai Kartini. Well, I saw many stand of collage. There was a funny moment when I wanted to go. Bu Zul called my name, and then Sasa, Ina and I just out from Dirgantara class. I sent msg to R, I said that I wanted to go. And he replied, “Don’t go! Bu Zul choose me too but I said I didn’t want go.” I said, “Whatever… I want to go.” and he just ran from his class to Bu Zul and begged. Bu Zul said, “Tadi ibu suruh dia gamau giliran tau ada kamu langsung mau.” I just laughed. On the afternoon, me and my bf went to Warteg Artomoro for lunch. It’s near from his home hhe. It’s delightful hehe :D

Umm.. the 2nd stories, he told me that his ex called him yesterday. He told me what did she said yesterday. And…pfff….sorry, it makes me (ups I mean us) laugh. Hmm, actually, his ex “curhat” about her bf. But sometimes seemed like she was comparing. And sometimes her sentences like……..pfff……hahahaha (sorry sorry I just can’t keep my mouth for not laughing!)

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(what is this?)

Posted by aqessa on February 19, 2009

Life is full of surprise. I never thought it was you. You, someone who changed my life, you someone who was giving me a bright day, and you someone who gave me a bunch of red roses to my heart. Till it’s beating faster every second, till my bloods swishing on my veins every minutes. And when the rain fell from the rooftop, you gave me your warm coat. When the sky looked so fine, you gave me a crayon to draw the clouds. And when the sun raised high, you told me to look at the sun bravely, you say, “Hey look at the sun! Let’s see the whole world!” And till we have shared many things. Tears and laugh, rainy day and summer, overcast and blue sky. I want you beside me, always. every inch of you I know what I have to do. I’m gonna standing on your side if you want to. I’m gonna give my hand if you fell down if you need me or not. When I heared my favourites song, I know you here belong being my lover, my best bestfriend, my big brother. And if someday you want to fly, fly. If you want to swim in atlantis, swim. If you want to jump and reach the sun, jump. I’m watching. And waiting. It’s okay. That is the way to prove that I heart you. Yes I do love you so.

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17th Birthday

Posted by aqessa on February 17, 2009

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I’m birthday on Feb 17. Yesterday. Which is now I’m legal, hihi. I can have my own identity card and (hope) driving license (but I still can’t drive till now! ayaaah ajarin doooong!). Present? Hmm yeah, thankyou mum, and dad I’m waiting ok! hehe. Btw R gave me a ring, hihi. Nira have said that R should gimme a promise ring huahahaha. Thankyou ya, R =)

I don’t make a birthday party. I don’t like making a party. I’m not good on it too. So my mum just made a birthday cake and then I brought it to school. We ate on physic class, cause the teacher was my wali kelas hehe. It seemed like celebrated a birthday party at school when I was a child haha. But it’s kinda fun! Thankyou for my beloved IPA1 :)
Well, my facebook full of bday greets. From my fam, my great friends, and also from other peoples which is I don’t know them exactly! Hahaha but thankyooou. Thankyou God, You still give me breath, heartbeat, swishing bloods, great family, great friends, great bf, and of course great life (even though it wasn’t perfect but it was GREAT!). I hope this year I can be much better and more mature. I hope I can be a sucess person on the future. Amin. Once more I said, thaaaannnkkkyoooouuu! I love You!

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Updates on 14 Feb

Posted by aqessa on February 14, 2009

Hey there!
I’m playing make a baby now, hihi my Apple Bubbleblee is pretty cute x). I’ve made an omelet with cheese powder. Actually the cheese powder is for french fries but I tried to use it hehe. My dad and my sist said that it taste great hihi. And then R said he wants me to make it for him (also the chocolate ball too). Okay R, just come to my home and I’ll make it for you ;)

Hmm by the way, it’s February 14th, isn’t it? Valentine’s day? Hahaha. No, I’m not celebrate it though I have a bf. It wasn’t a special day, I think..

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Time Traveling to Last Year

Posted by aqessa on February 13, 2009

Hello,
Capek abis pergi jenguk Ninid sore tadi di RSPP. Dia sakit typhus sama DBD gitu, get well soon ya nid! Tadi sore si Ninid di hibur seorang temen gue yang pesulap amatiran gitu hahaha. Dan hari ini rasanya seperti mengulang ke tahun lalu. Ketika gue dan teman-teman gue beli tiket Java Jazz ke Simprug. Hari Jumat juga, bulan February juga. Macet juga (yah namanye Jakarta neng!). Trus gue inget waktu gue kan udah jalan duluan, Haykal dengan polosnya ngomong ke Raka, “Eh kalo diliat-liat Rahar cocok ya sama Echa. Apa kita jodoh-jodohin aja?” hahahaha padahal ya waktu itu si Raka lagi pdkt sama gue. Hahaha bego banget Haykal :D . Dan sama seperti tahun lalu, selalu aja ada cerita “nabrak”. Tahun lalu Aryoko mobilnya nyium mobil depannya padahal lagi macet, tahun ini Haykal nyium bajaj bos! hahaha. Tahun lalu cuma nebeng sama Icko sampe Cililitan terus pulang naik angkot bareng Raka & Syasa. Tahun ini nebeng Icko sampe Halim terus naik taksi. Well, it seems like I was time traveling to last year, I missed it so mucho.

Oiya Java Jazz..
Hmm finally I bought 3 days daily pass and 1 Jason Mraz on Friday for the special show!! Yay yay yay! Hasil tabungan tahun kemaren tuh! Hhe. Can’t wait for March 6 7 8! x)

Well, yesterday I read my bf’s inbox, hmm you know what I’ve found? Something kinda interesting and blah. And I learnt one thing: Though I’m not pretty, not smart, not rich, but I’m independent. And I really proud about it. I think I’m not a spoiled girl. Y’ know, I really proud to myself. And then yesterday I changed my status updates on facebook. I wrote, “Though I’m not smart, pretty cute, and rich but I’m Independent. And I really PROUD about it.” Today I read my auntie commented my s.u. She said, “But you’re smart, you’re pretty and you should feel that you’re rich in your idea, soul n mind. One more thing never to forget to greatfull to ALLAH of what HIS has given to you, dear!” I cried when I read the last sentences. It touched me so much. Hahaha but maybe it was because of my hormone, it’s time for my period, so sometime I can be lebay haha. Thankyou God, though I’m ordinary but I have extraordinary life. I have a great dad, great mum, great family, great boyfriend, and great friends. Maybe my life wasn’t perfect but it was great. Thankyou, Allah SWT, You’re supergreat! I love You veryvery much! =)

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